I do not take rejection well. I am not a medical doctor, but I am quite certain I am allergic to rejection. Rejection tends to make me less productive on the day I am exposed to rejection, and occasionally it makes my eyes water. The frustrating part about rejection is that it has no season like typical allergies. Rejection can strike at any time of day… even on what was a good (or great) day. The effects of this rejection allergy can last a few hours, or occasionally up to 30 hours.
I have not found the best cure for my rejection allergy. Sometimes I consult a glass of wine to reduce the effects of rejection, but I typically turn to long hikes and/or running to burn off the debilitating effects of the rejection allergy.
Case: Yesterday I received my second rejection from an academic journal for my master’s paper. It’s not that it was turned down… it was rejected without even being sent out for review. The explanation letter said my research was highly important but unoriginal. Being “sent out for review,” for the non-academics, means that my article is sent out to two or three people for them to evaluate and send feedback to improve the article. The instant rejection means I have no feedback to even improve the article (other than it being important but unoriginal). I only spent 18 months working on this …
So now here I am on a sunny afternoon… trying to overcome my allergy to rejection. I plan to go run… but I am waiting on a phone call from a relative. After the phone call I will run… and hopefully reduce the impact of this irritating rejection allergy.
So how do you deal with rejection? Is this an allergy that you have conquered? What are your secrets? I would love to hear from you.
So… my laptop has been very glitchy the last few weeks. It does not have a virus… but it has a limited amount of memory, and it wasn’t great to begin with because cheap was all that I could really afford on a college budget. Well… it has served me through my first two years of graduate school (and helped write the Master’s Paper). Heck, this laptop has even traveled to the Philippines and back with me. But I am now looking into upgrading my laptop to a Microsoft Surface.
I want more memory. My laptop has 2 GB… the base Surface RT has 32 GB, but I will probably get the 64 GB.
I want a machine that will not choke under pressure. My laptop, twice, flipped out in the middle of important class presentations. I don’t know if you have ever had to give an entire presentation from memory… but I have had to do it twice. It is NOT fun. I think my laptop just got nervous though… because it was fine during practice… but when it came time to actually perform, the laptop folded under the stress and left me hanging. My concern with the Surface RT is that I have heard there is a learning curve with the new Windows 8. I think the learning curve is what brings the Apple Ipad into the picture… because no matter which one I get, it appears there will be a learning curve. Thoughts?
I want a computer that does not freeze up. One of the reasons I have not been blogging as much is because sometimes my computer has just had enough. I do not think it is overheating… I just think it was an out-of-shape computer to begin with, and keeping up with the demands I need at graduate school level was a little much for this thing. So… when I lose an hour or more a day because of my glitchy laptop, it does cut into blogging time. NOTE: Our wireless has also been cutting out. I think the laptop freezing and the wireless cutting out are two unrelated problems, because my laptop does not need to be at home to have a freezing issue.
I want something lighter. Hiking across campus to teach a class, and then hiking across campus to attend a different class, with a medium size laptop is not fun. I am hoping the Microsoft Surface will be the answer to my grad school needs… but I am still in the decision making process.
FINANCIAL ISSUES: This is where it gets confusing, and if you have a tax answer, I would love to hear it. I read, somewhere, that for a computer to be tax deductible it needs to be purchased during the school year. Okay… I feel like my laptop will last through the summer… maybe, and give me time to get the new Surface in the fall. However, if there is a learning curve (see #2), then I don’t want to walk into class with a brand new gadget and look incompetent in front of students while I try to learn. If I buy the tablet over the summer, even if I want to use it for school, it might not be tax deductible for education related expenses. I hate tax laws.
The other financial issue… the Surface is currently running a special that ends June 30th, to buy the tablet and get the keyboard with it for free ($119 value). I’m not sure if that matters as much… because if I waited until the fall to buy it, the price for the tablet itself may drop anyway. It would be nice if I just had $900 laying around the house that I could just spend without worry… but I am a graduate student, so going out to eat anywhere is a big deal.
Anyway debate is between the Microsoft Surface and the Apple Ipad 4 (or a new laptop). I want something that will last until the end of my dissertation. Should I get a laptop? Should I get a tablet with a keyboard? It’s not like I don’t have enough to think about while in graduate school. What would you recommend? Thanks!! 🙂
Last Thursday, at approximately 11:36 a.m. Pacific Time, I received the news that my master’s paper passed. Many of you know that it has been a long, hard road to get to this point. Many revisions of the paper, many sleepless nights. At one point I actually got stress hives.
But now I can relax this summer. You know, as relaxing as one can have while studying for a comprehensive exam (a nasty exam for PhD students). But I will not be teaching or researching over the summer, which means I can fish, study for the exam, and travel to the coast. How cool do I feel after finishing the masters? As cool as Ferris Bueller in Chicago: that’s how cool!!
I am still working on the master’s paper despite many late night hours this week. Friday I was up past 5:30 a.m. but it is still not done.
Some things are more important. The terrible events this past week in Boston, China and Texas are enough proof that life is unpredictable. My ETA for delivering my master’s paper to my thesis review committee is Thursday, April 25th. Even with that deadline pressure… spending time with my wife was more important. With that said… I stopped working on the master’s paper Friday at 6 p.m. … and I did not work on it at all on Saturday just so I could spend time with my wife.
I hope you are also able to put into perspective the things that are truly important!